August Advent, part 14: Holy Winks and Holy Laughter

I thank God for the Holy Winks and Holy Laughter that reminds me to take a breath and trust.

Over the past couple weeks of waiting, friends and family have supported us by sending encouraging messages - poems, memes, jokes, and emojis to remind us that we’re not alone. Many of them have made me laugh - even unintentionally. I laugh at the humor, I laugh at how absurd I must sound in my anxiety, I laugh at text exchanges about something else in life. I sense God’s love in the laughter and in the community support surround us, and that is why I give thanks for Holy Laughter.

A few months ago I wrote a little blog about Holy Winks - little moments, encounters, experiences in which I sense God’s presence reminding me that God has a plan for our family. I can trust and not stress.

Well, over the past couple of weeks I have allowed anxiety around the uncertainty to creep in and distract me a little bit. I know God is present, I know God has a plan, I know I can trust God, yet I have not rested in those truths as much as I could.

Even so, God continues to show up.

Today, two little things back to back snapped me out of the haze. Two Holy Winks that gave me pause, and then brought on tears of comfort, joy, and peace. As I told the stories, first to Courtney and then to others, the tears welled up, again, from deep within. And in those moments Christ’s peace felt tangible. Even though we’re at the end of August and we continue to wait for our visas, I felt as though God looked at us, winked, and said, “Why are you worrying, I’ve got you.”

Wow. Alleluia. Amen.